Why do I care about someone who probably doesn’t give a shit about me. I have been fighting for so long because

for me, us being together is my top priority, he’s always been my priority and it’s always been about him. He’s my person and I love so extremely much that sometimes it gets out of hand and I do something stupid only to get a reaction out of him. Why am I like this because I know that I’m just hurting myself even more and making me feel even more pathetic and embarrassed and all these over emotions. Why does everyone leave. Why does he have to leave. I miss him so fucking much and I’ve tried everything I could but he doesn’t understand that I just want to talk and that’s probably the best thing for me so I can get shit out. He can be there for everyone else but me, the one that truly needs him and the one he used to love everyday and always treat me like a queen. I stay knowing that he doesn’t appreciate me anymore and probably annoying the shit out of him but I can’t leave. We made each other a promise that We wouldn’t stop loving each other and caring for one another and I hold onto promises tight but I just have no one. I only have him and even he doesn’t want me. I’m so lost without him and my birthday is soon and I was so excited to spend it with him and now I just don’t even want to have a birthday bc I have no friends and I’ll just be a depressing person on the day and I don’t want that. I just want to talk to him.