It’s been a while since this has happened but today I full on sobbed for a long time when my friend told me she was pregnant. She sent me a photo of her ultrasound and said the baby was “dancing away with a hr of 180.” I’m so glad she sent me a text and didn’t tell me in person because although I’m happy for her, I’m so devastated. The only ultrasound I ever had was when I was 13 weeks along and my baby had already clearly passed. He wasn’t moving and there was no heartbeat. I have a photo of my already dead baby, my 12 week bloat/bump and a positive pregnancy test. And that’s all I’ll ever have. I miss my peanut so much and it hurts so much to know he’s gone and there’s nothing I can do. I would be 33 weeks now if I hadn’t lost him. 😭