Do you ever

Do you ever tell your husband that you feel a different way than you really feel just to make him happy or at the very least to avoid conflict even though it's a lie and it kills you a little bit each time, but after a while you just hope to become dead enough on the inside that you don't care anymore?

Edit: I will say that I used to cry when there was conflict but recently I've noticed that I can stare him straight in the eye and say "You are right about everything. I'm wrong. I'm sorry" and he can't tell that I'm sick to my stomach saying it. So I guess that's an improvement on self control.