You guys, I have never loved someone in such a beautiful way. I have never been empowered by love until I met this beautiful soul.

Ever since I was 14, I haven't had the best luck in relationships. I've been hurt many times and I'm still healing the roots of my problems. I have also hurt kind people who had nothing but love to give me, and let me tell you, I hate it.

I met this lovely existence around November 2017. I was already kind of interested in someone, but started seeing my boyfriend, as well. My situation was complicated, to say the least. I ended up ending this thing I had going on with him, and dated another person, all the while, my boyfriend was so kind and understanding when I ended things.

I broke up with that guy after a couple months. My boyfriend would appear and reappear at the most complicated times and we'd catch up and resume where we were. There was something about me, to him, that always drew him back, he told me. There's something about him, that always did the same for me, as well.

So, fast-forwarding to February 21st, we decided to hang out and go for a walk in the pretty graveyard near where he lives. I am so glad I did this, because here we are, as happy as can be.

I have been so stressed out lately. My home life hasn't been great and I was basically thrown out of my house randomly one day, a couple weeks ago (I've been staying with my boyfriend and my mom just called me to tell me that she was bringing my stuff to me and that I could live there because she's done with me—I'm hardly ever there anyways, so whatever).

I finally got a job, but have been stressed out about financial stuff and what-not. I got my IUD out yesterday as I am 98% sure it's been the culprit behind my suicidal thoughts and heightened depression, and he's been so supportive through all my panic attacks, random breakdowns that can last up to 30 minutes, etc. I have never had anyone that I've been able to fall onto and sob into their chest, but he comforts me and brings me out of any horrible headspace I may be in. Sometimes, my thoughts get absolutely terrifying and he brings me right out of them.

I have grown SO MUCH emotionally in this relationship, essentially adding to my (spiritual) growth. This relationship is fulfilling.

I had hurt him a lot in the beginning months. I left multiple times, but broke down every time and was absolutely lost. He stuck with me through such a confusing time and supported me and offered me love.

One night, while we were going through all that, and I was being confusing and confused, I sobbed to him on the phone for more than an hour. I opened up and was so upset and I told him I had no idea why I was doing what I was doing. I told him I loved him so much and I opened up entirely to him, and ever since then, we have been so strong. We have been through so much together as we both heal wounds from our past and experience the experiences life has to offer and I am incredibly grateful to experience all of this beauty with such an amazing, beautiful soul.

I could go and on, but I'll finish it up here. I wanted to share this because we've come so far and I have come so far, as well, from doubting I was able to love anyone, including my self, to loving someone with the entirety of my being, while also loving my self.

I am finally sharing my self with someone who actually, genuinely wants me, and it is such a good feeling that I am sobbing as I type that.

I love you all and I love this person so much.

Know that love heals and know that you all are capable of loving and being loved. If people can hate for no reason, then I can love for no reason, so I love you all very much, as well.

💚😽