Today is (was) our due date. September 25, 2018. Our angel baby was supposed to be our long waited for rainbow baby, but just two days before Valentine's day I miscarried our 6th child. It's a day I'll never forget.

"Your baby doesn't have a heartbeat" I'll never forget those words. My heart completely shattered. "But, why!? Why doesn't he/she have a heartbeat!? What happened!? Why was I miscarrying again!?" These questions will never be answered. I'll never have an explanation as to why I'll never get to hold the baby I so lovingly carried for those 6 short weeks.

After miscarrying 7 months ago there are no words to describe the pain and loss experienced. The fear, doubt and sadness have been overwhelming, and the what ifs have seemed unending still to this day.

Even though I carried you for 6 short weeks, I love you just the same. Forever our angel baby 👼🏼💕 II XII MMXVIII