I don’t enjoy sex.

I need to know if anyone knows how to help. I was sexually assisted from my brother when I was 4 years old. Raped in 9th and 10th grade. I acted out didn’t care about sex in high school I was easy. But now it’s like I hate sex. I just hate it. I don’t ever want anything inside me. I’m fine with anything like vibrator or anything with feeling. But I just can’t have anything in me I hate it. I thinks it’s what happened to me. And idc what’s the reason, I just want to know how to get back to normal or if I ever will be normal again?

I’ve been with my boyfriend 5 years and I’m 20 years old right now. He knows what happened to me as well and tries to understand but I know he is miserable only getting sex 1 time within 2 weeks. I force myself to have sex so please him. But I ablsolutley could go my whole life without it again.

Some one please give me advice if this is going on with you as well. I really don’t know what to do. If I should go to my lady doctor or health doctor. Or mental doctor lol. I don’t know what to do.