I was raped five years ago and I do NOT want to ever come forward or speak up about it, does that make me weak?

I know a lot of people are coming forward with the me too movement and I think that’s great, but I think it does put a lot of pressure on people who don’t. I don’t want to come forward or speak up about it because I don’t want to be a victim I don’t want to be viewed as someone who was rape, I don’t want to be felt sorry for and I don’t want to not be believed. I didn’t come forward when it happened because I was petrified that no one believe, there were two guys one raped me and the other sexually assaulted me, so I figured two against one. When I got home that day and called my friend to tell him what happened my mom and sister overheard me on the phone and came to my door and started banging on it they started raising their voice at me to open my door and I felt the weight of it crushing me I felt like I couldn’t breathe, when they came in they bombarded me with questions and being raped and I immediately shut down and just told them “I was talking about someone else people thought it was me, it wasn’t”. When I got to school a few people had asked if I was raped or why was I saying I was raped and the guy that raped me said someone asking me if you were raped and that I was lying and I shut down again. I told people “no that didn’t happened” and I told the story to others but took out all the parts that qualify it as rape. I never mentioned after that until about a year or two later when the trauma of it finally hit me and had really effected my life. I am still working to heal from this, but I honestly believe that coming forward especially at this point would be pointless for me and would just make it worse. I don’t want this to be who I am, I want to move on and not have to be labeled with it over my head. I’d rather pretend like it didn’t happen. Does that make me weak or a coward?