TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️I’m getting worse.

I was diagnosed with clinical depression and anxiety when I was 15 years old. All the medications they attempted to put me on just didn’t work. They either made me more anxious or more depressed. I haven’t taken any medication since I was 17, but have struggled very very much with my day to day life. I know a lot of people believe that anxiety is a millennial thing to have and “everyone has it” but this disorder makes my whole life a living Hell. When I was 21, after a really difficult breakup of a 6 year relationship.. I went out on my very first date. On that date, I was raped. Since this happened, my mind spirals. I can’t keep my head straight when I have an anxiety attack. I have panic attacks more times a week than I can count.. and my OCD is really intense. After the rape, my insurance paid for me to see a therapist. She said that I now have stage 3 anxiety, high OCD, and still suffer from depressive episodes frequently.

My reason for posting is just to see if anyone has advice. Therapy has not helped me, medications do not help me, and my husband gets very concerned for my well being because I hyperventilate to the point of passing out. I don’t know how to help myself anymore. I just need help and I don’t know where to get it.