So much resentment.

Today I realize just how much resentment I have towards my husband. He gets absolutely everything. We had to sacrifice the quality of house we live in so he could have enough land to build his shop. I’m the line of vehicles he wants it he gets it. He travels all of the time for work leaving me by me self with our daughter then bitches to me when i have had to put homework or dishes off because I can’t do everything in a day. I work outside of the home but Im still expected to have dinner done and waiting for him when he gets home. I only get home 20-30 minutes before he does. If I make a mistake or forget something grocery shopping I have such anxiety to tell him because I know he will make me out to be such a bad person. I can’t help it I love him but not as much as I used to. There was a time in my life I would have gave everything up for him and I did give everything up for him but there is no reciprocated action from him. The closer I get to getting my degree the worse he treats me. And when I bring it up he pins it all on me acting like I’m the psycho bitch. I don’t want my daughter growing up in a broken home but I’m so unhappy and it impacting my mood towards her. Not to meantion she deserves to see how she SHOULD be treated. I just feel sick and if I ever try to leave he won’t let me. I feel like a hostage in my own home and I’m scared that if I ever get to leave he will try to take my daughter. I feel sick. He’s out in his shop with his dad and I’m folding his laundry with so much resentment I want to pack up my daughter and I and go to my family’s house