Hi everyone. I know I have posted so many times on this group. And I know y'all know my story (if y'all done go to my profile and you will see it). But I know y'all don't reply back to me. But I need as many comments I can get. I have not gone to the doctor about PTSD, but I will be telling my family about my sexual abuse story soon. And I am pretty excited to finally show my abuser that I don't keep quiet. I will be telling y'all some of my symptoms of the sexual abuse. And please let me know if it's PTSD. Please! Thank u.

1. If I hear on the news or if someone says something about sexual assult, rape...etc. I get shaky and just get uncomfortable and have to leave.

2. I am a Christian and when I listen to Christian music/songs I get really sad when some songs say that God is with u because I wish he was with me when he was with me at 8 years old.

3. I get uncomfortable when I am around my brother-in-law/abuser (probably normal)

4. I cry when I go in my room and it's dark. And sometimes want to commit suicide. Because it reminds of me when I would do it with my brother-in-law when we did it. (Or any room I go in I get triggered).

5. I hate making new friends because I am scared to go to their house or sleepover because of their dad or if they have a older brother.

6. I get very bad anxiety attacks when I am somewhere new.

7. At my church they do meet and greet, and I have to sit down because I don't want to talk to men.

8. I have very bad depression.

I can't remember much. But let's just say that is most of it. Is this PTSD? Or what? Please answer! I need help! So then I can tell my mom and then tell her I may have PTSD. Thank you.