When I was 16 I had a close friend. We were like sisters. We will call her “Sarah”. I then made friends with a guy and we will call him “Todd”at the time “Todd” just went through a break up and was suicidal and I offered to be there for him. Our friendship was strictly platonic and never weird. He wasn’t my type and I never got that vibe from him. But my friend liked him so I set them up and they got into a relationship. They were happy and the relationship was good but I lost touch with them after having my son and being busy with the Mom life. After a year of my son being born I get a text message from “Todd” saying he was having problems and needed someone to talk to. I was having problems of my own and said yes because we would do it all the time in high school just cruise and talk about our problems. So he picks me up I give him $5 for gas so we can cruise. Everything is like normal at first and then he pulls into a dirt spot in the middle of the desert. I still wasn’t really suspicious at this point and we began talking about the things he was going through. After talking for about an hour I started talking about how tired I was and he just said he wasn’t tired. I tried to keep the convo going for another hour or so then I’d ask to go home. Well the convo started to get weird on his part he started saying how he hadn’t had sex in a long time and he was so horny. I told him no thanks not with me why don’t you tell this to “Sarah”. And he basically continued saying other things like I’m insecure about my dick size can you tell me if I’m big or not. At this point I began to start to panic I asked to step out of the car for a smoke and he said nah let’s not. I said I’m tired can you take me home and he continued with I’m not tired yet. Sooner or later 6 hours have passed by and still no sign of him taking me home. I’ve been just trying to change topics all night and asking about going home. I then gave him a blow job and he started the car immediately afterwards. I hated it I didn’t want to do it and when I got home I threw up I cried for days and days I had told him it hurt me and friends don’t do that to friends. I cut him out of my life and blocked him on everything. I went through intensive EMDR therapy and l I lost 100 lbs over the course of 6 months from the sick feeling that lingered from the assault. I then decided to tell my old friend “Sarah” about it a year later because I was afraid of her thinking I wanted it. And I got the reaction I knew I would. I don’t understand.