Have you experienced this after a miscarriage?

Erin • My rainbow baby✨🌈👶🏻 arrived 7-16-21 🥰❤️

On June 4th of this year I had a miscarriage. It’s been really hard. Recently I’ve been doing pretty good. However since September my boyfriend and I have been trying again for our rainbow baby. I’m completely bummed when I end up getting my monthly cycle. I don’t try to get my hopes up at all but deep within I’m hoping it doesn’t come because I’m pregnant. However this month it has come and my emotions are so scattered. It probably doesn’t help hormones are crazy during your menstrual. Has anyone else noticed this after a miscarriage and TTC again? We have been trying again since August especially being the Dr said the first 6 months after a miscarriage have greater chances of getting pregnant again. I’m trying to just take a deep breathe and trust it will eventually happen. It’s definitely exhausting emotionally. 😔 I just want my 🌈👶🏻✨