Much needed sex advice. On the brink of breaking down...

So me and my SO have been together for a little over a year now. We are 8 years apart and he is the one that took my virginity. (He’s 35) When we first began having sex I thought we were going to have these crazy passionate love making sessions that lasted hours. I quickly realized that was far from reality. I was constantly horny and always wanted to have sex though. He would be up for sex maybe 2 times a week which drove me CRAZY. He also lasted maybe 10 minutes MAX each time. I know a lot of my perception of sex was pulled from movies and just what I’ve heard growing up so I tried to reel it back and be more chill about sex. I thought maybe sex isn’t what I have dreamt it would be this whole time. I have also NEVER climaxed from intercourse, and if I want to climax while we are having sex I have to rub my clit while we are going at it. I have asked him before if he could try it because I’ve always felt like my orgasms are never 100% because I always have to stop because it just feels too good. If that makes sense? Lol. So he did try and quickly said his hand got “tired”. Another time he tried I tried to reposition his hand to get it on the exact spot and he kept yanking it away saying that he could do it. (He didn’t) To this day I have only climaxed after me rubbing myself while we were having sex. It’s gotten down to about once a week while I know some people are going to tell me isn’t horrible. It’s also gotten to the point where I will climax maybe once a MONTH because I’m just not up for rubbing myself every time. I don’t know what to do... I feel like I am horny all the time and I have all this energy built up in me all the time that I feel like I’m going to explode. I asked if we could try a sex toy, we bought a vibrating clock ring with bunny ears so it might help stimulate me. We tried it once, he said it hurt too much and we never tried anything else again. I want to cry all the time because I love this man SO MUCH but I feel like he does not care that much about pleasuring me. He is my everything and I can never see myself leaving him. My love language it physical touch and I love being intimate with him so much more than he does with me. I just need opinions and advise. And if I am being selfish please let me know...