Appt made for IUD removal ✅

Ordered ovulation tests✅

Nervously excited about the start of this process! Just turned 30 and just got married! I honestly thought the day would never come that I was in a place in my life where I was going to be ready to have one. Not saying I think you have to be married to have a baby. I didn’t think I was ever going to get married or settle down. I didn’t want to bring a child into the world when I wasn’t sure what my future looked like. For me having a baby by myself isn’t an option. I have PTSD and until last year had to have my faithful service dog just to go to the grocery store. I’m a paramedic and was held at gun by a patient for a long time. It left very deep scars. I was unable to be alone in public. I wouldn’t eat because I couldn’t go buy food unless I had someone to go with me until I got my service dog. I didn’t think it was a safe or fair thing to have a child when I couldn’t hold myself together enough to just buy even toilet paper without risking a panic attack. Then God gave me Eric. He’s been my best friend and on and off SO for years but it wasn’t until a year ago that I braved letting him into the deepest part of my heart that my world changed. He is a bright light in my darkness. I still have bad days but they’re few and far between. I’m able to function without my service dog at my side. Which means he gets to be a dog again! He’s not to happy that momma goes out the door without him but he’s loving being able to go outside and play without having momma panic the moment someone walks up to say hello now. I’m off all but as needed meds for sleep. Which is huge! I’ve wanted this for so long. I’m still so nervous at what kinda mother I’ll be but I’m confident now my past won’t ruin a tiny innocent life! It almost doesn’t seem real that I’m starting this journey!