Losing hope😩

After I miscarried at 7 weeks and another 4 months later at almost 5 weeks now on my second cycle and period is due in two days so far I think I’m just getting evaps the line only shows after it has dried. No sore boobs this month after ovulation like I usually get never got a positive opk this month either so I have no clue if I even ovulated. 😩 just feel like this was a waist of a cycle 🙁👎🏻 I just wanna be pregnant! Not looking forward to my period showing up in a couple days