Angry 😡

I was diagnosed with PCOS today after TTC for about a year. My husband and I went to a RE because the treatment given by my OB wasn’t working. What makes me angry is my OB. I made an appointment about 18 months ago to specifically be checked for PCOS because of my irregular periods. She did blood tests and a vaginal ultrasound, and despite my results of high testosterone, irregular periods and the number of follicles shown in each of my ovaries, I was told I didn’t have PCOS. She actually got smart with me after told her about somethings that I read online about PCOS, and she was very offended that I was “trying to do her job”. The RE reviewed all of my labs for the tests given by my OB and did new ultrasounds just to double check everything. The RE repeatedly apologized and told me I actually do have PCOS and was very shocked that my OB told me otherwise. I’m so angry that I’ve had false hope these past 18 months thinking I was crazy to have PCOS and that I just had unexplained infertility. Thinking about all the time, money, energy, and emotions that have gone wasted into this process pisses me off. I can’t help to think if her misdiagnosis was truly a mistake or out of malice because “I was trying to do her job” and that her pride was knocked. Or was she just trying to get more money out of us knowing that what she prescribed wasn’t going to work. I have so many thoughts and emotions flowing through my mind it’s all I’ve been able to think about all day. I’m grateful that we’ve found a doctor that seems to have our best interest in mind and pray that the next step in this process works out better than the last.