The TTC wars

We lost our son in July and I've been dying to begin trying for a rainbow this month, but my fiance is dead set on February.... waiting 3 months was hard enough, and he expects me to go 4 months (without my adderall?!) to try again... after the fact that last month he told me to go ahead and buy opks. 😤😤😤

Did anyone else battle being patient to ttc? What did you do in the meantime to keep your sanity?

I am currently working 56-64 hour weeks, but that only causes more stress.... *sigh*