I’ve been having a really hard time coping. I was 14 when my 18yr old family friend raped me and threw me in a bathroom supply closet so he wouldn’t get caught. Then I was 18 at a house party when I got drugs in my drink and had a foreign (from Russia) rape me for my friends to come in and pull him off of me. Then January of this year, I got drunk at a house who I thought I trusted the people in there, but I was blackout drunk and the guy had pulled me downstairs and forced me to do oral on him. I can still feel the scars in my mouth from him hitting me and my teeth tearing inside my mouth. I’ve always been anonymous with any post on any group, but today, I’m not. Because I’m stronger than this, but I can’t stop the PTSD and panic attacks.