Goin to be 30 next month.. TTC for 6 months now 💔

We had to get a dnc March 30 💔 my due date was the 6... this month.. Saturday... this is heartbreaking for me and my SO sometimes he can’t even look at me it just hurts to think of what could’ve been... we have been TTC since and each month is harder and sadder for us. He’s silent about it and stays withdrawn and I’m very vocal about my emotions. Idk what to do... sometimes I think when we lost our baby we lost us. And it’s killing me. His sister was due a month after me, her baby shower is this Saturday. And idk how I feel about going. Every time he sees her he just gets sad and wants to leave me cause he can’t take it, they r very close and it would’ve been both the 1st kids for them and firsts for their mom.... we r trying and trying. I literally got preg my first cycle last time... and now it’s just not happening....

Any body ever use OTC meds and it work?

Any one have tips for me??