Crying myself to sleep...

This is the worst feeling ever. Being so excited for the tww & a big fat negative 😪 maybe I don’t deserve to be a mother ... I’m so heartbroken all I want is a child in my life... I suffer from bad depression & anxiety, it’s not always bad but I have my days where I need to find motivation to keep going ... 😪 please pray I have my rainbow baby soon 🤞🏻👣