😓 domestic violence 😓

I’ve been in a relationship for 4 years as of the 20tb of this month . But my husband is VerY abusive but it’s not all his fault . It’s mine ... So The first 3 months of our relationship were good except I’d hit him when I got mad (he just took it) now I’m not a small dainty little girl I do cage fighting and I love working out I’m actually very strong for my size and use to fight males . Anyway he took me hitting him for 3 months I was getting off meth I had just been kidnapped and was being held for 2 months I met my husband 2 weeks later at his house a friend took me to his house . Well after I had recovered from the everything he was like enough is enough I’ve taken this for long enough imma hit u the next time u hit me he said he’s gunna match my hit so as hard as I hit him he’s gunna hit me . WELL when I hit him he hit me right back and knocked me on my ass and then got on top of me and hit me again and held me down . Well we got into had a full fledge fight and I was fucked up after I had bruises and blood all over me my sister came over unannounced and saw this and was terrified she was so happy that I found a guy who was great and is keeping me safe and she comes to his house where I’m living and sees this . She said Madison he’s going to kill u one day I’m like nah I’m fine . Nope well this behavior has continued and only gotten worse he pushed me out of a truck going 45 mph because our husky puppies got out and the mom too we lived in the woods and the closes store was 39 min away . He started whipping me with charging cables those make you bleed or swell up real nice or just hit me and then put me in a choke hold till I’m almost passed out OH we jus had a baby 4 weeks ago and he started fighting with me the other day 😓