I hate my life. This month is my 30th and later on in the month is my husband's birthday. I went through. <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a> this month and month was the due date of my baby which I had a early miscarriage. Because I did <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">ivf</a> in my hometown city.. we are extending our stay to enjoy our birthdays. However I'm not that into celebrating or even doing anything. I'm still emotional and I only got 4 embryos from <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">ivf</a> but they still need to be tested genetically. The reason for <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">ivf</a> is that my husband has a balance translocation which means the chance of 1 normal embryo would be like we won the lottery. So my husband wants me too my in laws and all I'm asking for is a month off. I've been through hell and back and I don't really want to see them this month given everything that is going on. They have never once given me a card or even a gift in the last five years that I've been with him but I've done multiple things for my husband in front of me. My relationship is not the best with them and I'm really scarred from how they've treated me on previous birthdays so I just don't want to be in their presence. All I'm asking for is the month off and yet he thinks I'm unreasonable and literally crying abd saying please don't force me. He doesn't get it. He thinks now that he can fix things and protect me but where was he five years ago??? I've done things for his family gotten birthday gifts and cards in the past and now I just don't do anything and they continue to do nothing for me. I just don't want to be around them. They don't even care if we have kids and if we struggle because they don't want me ultimately to be with him. I'm so tired of my life.... it's like it's meant to be this way.. like we're suppose to divorce..