Finally feeling like I’m giving up 😢

My husband and I have been trying for 14 years. Can not afford private ivf and I have had surgery for endometriosis. I also had pre cancerous cells on my cervix 13 years ago, for which I had many biopsies and treatments. I always wonder if this has had an impact on having so many problems.

I did fall pregnant 8 years ago but sadly miscarried. I have seen my GP but there is nothing we can do unless we have £12,000 to pay!

Life is so cruel, I see people popping out babies that cannot even support them and have had to take myself off of all social media, as I cannot bare another pregnancy announcement 😢 I am 35 at Christmas and would love to be able to conceive naturally, but I just don’t think it will happen now! I have two step children (adults) and am more likely to now be a nan before I’m able to give birth and hold my own baby😔