10 years looking for help
At 13 I was diagnosed with depression
I’m 23 now and I’ve gotten no medical help even tho I’ve been trying every year non stop to find a therapist and clinical help....
Every single time I go to a new clinic they diagnose me with a new mental illness...
Ten years later...
Depression
Anxiety
Bi polar disorder
Social phobia
Borderline personality disorder
And still... no help.
No therapy, no medication...
I honestly don’t know how I’m dealing when everyday I contemplate killing myself but I really am too depressed to even have the energy to attempt
And also too bi polar to commit to a choice of living or dying...
It literally just sucks bc I have to live a normal life on the daily even tho internally I feel so fucking sick but I cannot quit.
It’s so sad bc if I had a fever or bad cough or my arm was broken it would b different
Maybe then I can get a break....
I just want to cry and go to the beach, talk to God
Feel love again...
I feel so insane and dealing alone is basically just leaving me in a place of illusion and disillusion
Just needed to write this out.
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