This is personal, I’m not sure I wanna post it under my name,but I need to vent, this is something I just can’t contain by myself.

When you waste ten months on someone. Show your true love and genuine feelings. You click so well and you think nothing is wrong. Thinking your love can really last long distance. I mean it’s only three hours right? To me that’s nothing comparatively to others, but to him it must of been everything. You go about your day thinking nothing is wrong. He doesn’t respond for 6 hours, shuts off his location, then, my heart drops. Some girl sends me a pic of her from his phone. No context, just her. I ask who she is and what’s going on, she only tells me her name is Natalie. I try and try to get answers out only to be left on read. Or get another picture of her saying nothing. To make it even worse I get ones of her in a bed, her with him, then him sending me a picture of them together. He was smiling so big like it wasn’t an accident he sent it to me. I was told she was just a friend, then things changed. He wants to make it official with her, we are done. But he still wants to be friends. The best part is, he admitted to having feelings for her the entire time, since summer. We’ve been together since January. He put more effort into her in one weekend than I’ve gotten in ten months. I didn’t even ask if they slept together, I don’t think I wanna know the answer. It hurts. You’re birthday was this week and I got you a turtle shirt because it was a cute inside joke we had, I made you a playlist and wrote out every meaning to those songs. I was going to drive those three hours, I offered to pay every time you did, I tried to make it as easy as I could for you. Moving everything if it worked for you,but each time I asked you were busy or tired. This all just comes out now and while I’m in shambles the most he can say is I’m sorry. I’ve never understood how little words mean until this situation. You wouldn’t have to be sorry if you wouldn’t have done it. Now im left to sit here and pick up the pieces. Every time you told me you car d about me,support me, was proud of me, all of it. It feels like a lie. Nothing came out of you was true, I can’t even trust you. Yet, I somehow want to stay, because you were the best I have had so far. You’ve stuck around the longest without hurting me physically or emotionally, you’ve been through a lot with me. You’ve even said it yourself. I want to be happy for you i truely do. I just wish I woulda known that when you said she was just a friend, it was a complete lie.....