Setting myself up for misery... again

So my partner and I have been trying to conceive for 8 years, I usually have pretty regular periods, odd couple of occasions I’ve come on a day or so late got excited, done and test and it’s been a big fat no. It actually got to the point last July when I was 6 days late my partner said he didn’t want me to take a test because he didn’t want another negative and to be honest I felt the same. So here I am 2 days late not feeling pregnant but no period.

To be honest I think I just wrote this post to moan. We’ve been trying so long and we don’t obsess about it but I want to be a mama and I’m scared it will never happen. All our friends ask when we are going to have a baby but we always say in a few years etc but truth be told we’ve been trying since before half my friends even thought about kids.

Anyone else out there in a similar situation??