So, for the sake of trying to not make this post super long.

I need help.

Over the last 2.5 years of my life, I have been on and off insurance which made me on and off NuvaRing (the birth control I had been on for 6 years prior with the best experience and no complications)

During the times I wasn’t on NuvaRing and didn’t have insurance the doctors tried to switch me between different kinds of pills. -I have anxiety so most of them make it so bad-

During one of the switches, I got pregnant. I had followed every single thing the doctors told me to and I took every pill and never missed a day, even in switching and it still happened.

I actually found out when I was in for an appointment to get the nexplanon in because the pills were just not making me feel good.

I was in total shock.

I had an abortion, and had the Nexplanon put in and here starts the worst 5 months of my life.

My skin broke out so badly with cystic acne I couldn’t even touch my face to wash it. I was so emotional because of the hormones I cried every day and I barely left my house. I started getting facial hair and I gained 12 pounds.

They wanted me to wait 6 months but I just couldn’t. I had it taken out after 5, and went back on my NuvaRing and I was SUPER EXCITED.

Flash forward to about 3 weeks ago, I had no sex drive. My skin has cleared up some but I still have bumpy skin and cystic acne on my forehead and jawline... just not as big or painful. I can not lose this weight and I’m very active. And I’m just so defeated.

I took the NuvaRing out 3 weeks ago and now I’m not on anything. My skin hasn’t changed, my weight hasn’t chnaged. The only thing that feels different is my libido but I won’t have sex with my boyfriend because I’m terrified and we want to be sexually active. My doctor recommended Mirena but I’m just so tired of failing at this.

Any advice helps. Thank you.

**picture is 3 weeks after having Nexplanon removed**