I have depression. When i first found out i was pregnant i feel like my whole world was finally getting better, i felt as if i could finally breathe again. I was 16 years old when i found out i was pregnant, my boyfriend and me were living together for a year now because my family kicked me out for telling everyone "the family secret "that i was raped by my cousin. We were ganna move to another city that was 2 hours away before i even found out that i was pregnant so due to me being high risk for random bleeding i had to stay with my parents to get proper care . My mother was honestly the kindest most wonderful mother anyone could ask for she just kept quiet because my dad was abusive. When i started living there my boyfriend started to ignore me he started to act so different later found out he was cheating all throughout my pregnancy. When i hit the 6 month mark i had contractions and dialated without me knowing and my son had to be born and well he was a stillborn and my life was crushed again. When i was pregnanf i felt love i didnt feel lonley. But the second he was out of me the second i felt him come out i was scared , lost , lonley again. My boyfriend wasnt there to see the labor he didnt even go to see me until 5 days later . I had to see my son dead in my arms , i had ro see him take his last breath, i didnt even get to hear his cry. Today is almost 2 years later and im sitting in the car crying depressed i need help . I need to help myself .