I have only told this to my mom, but I need some opinions. In high school I had my first real boyfriend who I lost my virginity to when I was 14. We broke up and I ended up dating his best friend for 4 years (messed up I know but he actually didn’t care). Anyways, after his best friend broke up with me, I never spoke to either of them. Flash forward to senior year of high school..me and my friends would go into down and drink. I was wasted, and couldn’t walk home from the train..my ex boyfriend who I lost my virginity to (let’s call him Tom), lives right near the train. I asked if he would pick us up and take us home. He said of course, so Tom picked us up. He dropped all of my friends off and I fell asleep in his car. I woke up when we got

To his house (he lives on my street) and he asked me to come in to watch a movie. I said surd but ended up falling asleep on his couch. I woke up to him inside me, I am not sure if it was his fingers or something more, but I immediately stumbled out of his house and walked home. My mom is his hairdresser, and I told her. My mom never returned his moms phone calls again. He is very popular in my town, he’s always having the best parties. Being 17 and stupid, I didn’t tell anyone because he was popular. Now I’m 21 and cannot get his face out of my mind. I moved states, and it never leaves my mind. My husband knows him and I just feel wrong talking to him about it. I just don’t know how to get this memory out of my brain.