In January 2018, on Tuesday the second, I invited someone over who I really liked An who I thought I could trust. I was home alone so I figured perfect time. He came over an I asked if he wanted to watch a movie. He said no an put music on an said he had “other ideas”. He sat me on his lap An we kissed an An got all heated but when he asked if I’d take my clothes off I said I didn’t want to. He asked over an over again so I finally said fine. He got my clothes off an I hid under the blankets considering I’m extremely self conscious. He told me to “go doggy” an I just submit to get it over with. He stopped an pulled out an I asked if we could stop An he said “5 more minutes” so I just gave up. He finished all over my back An I yelled to clean it up. He did, got dressed, I got my clothes on, An we went outside. I was all closed up An held my knees to my chest on the porch chair An he goes “I won’t tell if you don’t”. After i spoke up I got called a whore, skank, dirty. I got threats from all his friends. An before him I was a virgin. I got questions like “well what were you wearing”. An it upset me cause I had soft pajama pants, an oversized hoodie, no makeup, An my hair was up in a messy bun. I wasn’t trying to impress. He told me days later he took too many Tylenol An didn’t remember anything An told everybody he didn’t even know where I lived. To this day I still think “well I said fine”. Close friends an family have said it wasn’t my fault An that I just knew he was stronger than me so my instinct was to submit.