When I was in 8th grade, there was this guy I really liked (we will call him Ted) and he really liked me as well. We became really good friends, flirted all the time, came so close to getting together several times, but he was so off and on with another girl. I kind of "casually dated" a little while waiting for him, but in the end, I WAS waiting for him.

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Freshman year was coming up and that summer we hung out a lot. He brought me to his house, introduced me to his mom, his grandpa, and all his siblings. We started watching a movie and I ended up laying on top of him and we came so close to kissing, like inches away, but one of his younger siblings came running in. After that, we kind of went back to just being best friends/super flirty. I dated a few different guys our freshman year, but I always thought about Ted.

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At the beginning of my sophomore year, I had been dating a different guy for a few months when Ted messaged me on Facebook, out of the blue, telling me that he still had feelings for me and he wants to give us a chance. I was torn. This was what I had been waiting for, but I also cared about my current boyfriend. I was honest with my boyfriend about how I was feeling and, after I started to see his true colors, I chose Ted. I broke up with my boyfriend to finally be with Ted. We started talking a little more, but he suddenly was not ready for a relationship.

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A couple months later I started dating my (now) husband and Ted and I remained friends. The three of us even hung out together a few times.

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I am now 23 and happily married, trying for our first baby, but I have always had Ted in the back of my mind. We had this friendship and connection that I just can't explain. We haven't talked since our senior year, and I miss him. Here lately, he has been posting things on facebook that I can't help but feel are about me. He shared an article that was, something along the lines of, "to the man who let her get away, when she waited for you". He has shared other similar posts as well, some more specific that gives me the idea it is about me.

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I'm always going to wonder "what if". I have been thinking about him a lot lately, and just miss the friendship we used to have, but like I said, we have not talked in about 5 years. Now he is moving out of state next year and I feel like I will probably never see him again. I just wish I could reach out to him and just have my friend back, but I feel like there may be too much history and too much time has passed without talking.