Getting tired of feeling guilty but don’t wanna ruin someone’s life...

I’m 20 years old and when I was younger I was inappropriately touched by a family member... I’ve stayed silent due to being scared and the family member has kids..

I feel like this is the only place I can open up to, anonymously anyway... it’s making me go insane I don’t want the whole world to know that it was me who it happened to but I want something done bout it I’m just scared.

It happened more than once, the first time it happened I was sleeping over at the family members house, and I was woken up by a feeling in my pants. I didn’t move, I didn’t make a sound. At first I just kinda rolled over and tried to play off sleeping but he came back and tried to put him hand back between my legs, I tightened up my legs alittle but he got threw. I was scared but silent... I didn’t know what to do

I just went bout my life normal afterwards thinking it never happened and thinking it will never happen again, I was wrong, it happened a lot more, the only thing he never done was put it in... but what he did was enough to hurt me.

I finally think it’s time to come out and tell someone but idk who to trust. I’m not looking for negativity or judgments... I’m looking for a way to be free from my thoughts and fears.

Anyone willing to help or that has been three the same thing.. I just someone to talk to and figure out what I can do.