Hurt and Lost

Last night my former boyfriend texted me telling me that i was trying his boy and his “boy” is me and my best friends brother figure. He didn’t see it like that, but i never knew because he never communicates with me. he hurt me all the time but i stayed because of the comfort. so he accused me of doing something so horrible but only to use as an excuse to break up with me or that’s what it seemed like it because after arguing about that he said it was because “too much fighting” and the person who told him this rumor was my own cousin. i just feel bad a i have no idea why 🤦🏽‍♀️ i’m really pressed and don’t wanna show my family that i am. advice ? 😕