To my “parents” you didn’t stop y’all life to take care of me...y’all just left me with my aunt to raise me and she just knew how to provide not be a parent. I cried daily from the emotional abuse. I wish I died plenty of tried to end it..Having me should’ve made you grow up and let go but forget about me. Why wasn’t i good enough? Y’all were there for your other kids why wasn’t i enough? I am still searching for that unconditional love and i haven’t found it. I was expecting my first child at the age of 21 i was so excited i have never felt like that I just knew the pain would go away and my life would be complete...I have never been in such a worse spot in my life my first pregnancy, my baby, my entire world ended when I lost my baby..at only 8 weeks i am still crushed i knew the love i never had the feelings and things i never done would finally be complete and i could experience love but it just ended it pain. Seems like that’s all my life is just filled with pain and disappointment. Why am i still crying after 22 years? What did i do not to deserve this love or even a child? I wish i had the answers