Situationship🤦🏾‍♀️

I'm a senior in high school and my boyfriend of nine months and I just broke up last month.(we were always arguing and we both had a lot going on personally) we recently decided to become friends and see where it goes since it hurt really bad to just pretend like we don't no each other. Last Thursday, before my game, we hung out and got some food and were just chilling. Before we knew it we kinda just hooked up. I felt really weird about it because I missed being intimate and still loved him so i tried to distance myself and be less girlfriend-like and be more friend-like. I started texting him back slower and kept our conversations brief but he called and said it made him feel like he did something wrong and that he loves me and he wants to go back to how it used to be but I don't know what to do because he broke up with me and it was bad(like i lost my crap of a job bad) buttt i still love him i just don't want to pretend like the problems never happened(bc lord knows my mom won't, she is the type to hate you forever even for the littlest thing) what do i do???