Climax ..im giving up

When i have sex with my boyfriend I never cum. The session is always dedicated to him releasing his load and he knows that so being the considerate man he is, he always tries to make me take a break from pleasuring him so that he can make me cum . It Never works , the sex is really good but I never reach that point but when I masturbate I cum like crazy . It's hard trying to show him what I like because im so particular and he tends to miss things. Maybe it's because I'm low-key disinterested in him ( for other reasons) but I give up .

I'm just gonna fake it so much that he thinks he's a great lover , that usually works and I get the sex over with so I can get on with the rest of my day/night.