I’m so wishy washy

Marin

Okay... so I’ve been begging my bf ( of 10 years) to have a baby. And I’m 4 days late you’d think I’d be excited but quite the opposite happened. I started to get second thoughts and started review my life and I was thinking how the he’ll am I going to do this.. Babies are expensive, tons of doctor appointments.. what’s the best daycare yada.. yada ..then I started my period! I was so relieved!! Then about an hour goes by and I get sad. Really sad then I’m back to think oh I want a baby I want a baby. What the hell is wrong with me. Did anyone else go through something similar to this because I feel like a terrible person. I feel like I’m just thinking about my self...ugh I’m so confused I need guidance. Please share your thoughts. Thank you