Celibacy // Mom // Dating // Need advice

Monique • ✨ 23 | Mother | 434 ✨

So I’m a mother of 2 ( same father ) been basically single almost 2 years. I’ve talked to a few people throughout the 2 years, but it’s just like I feel so guilty for some reason. I’m a single mom and when I say single, I mean single single their dad don’t do anything for them see, call check on them nothing ( story for another day ). I feel guilty dating because my kids are my life my whole world revolves around them 24/7. I just feel like me getting into a serious relationship would take from my time with them. I was dating this 1 guy who I’ve known all my life ( literally been neighbors all our life ). He had a child already when we started dating, so it felt normal because again we already knew each other. We ended because of others reasons. I just feel like bringing someone new around them would confused them only guy friend my kids seen me with was the dude I was dating after their dad. My kids don’t even remember their dad my daughter was 2 when when broke up & I was still pregnant with my son. In 2 years there dad only seen them like 4 times ( his chose btw, but again story for another day ). I wanna start talking to someone again and dating but I just feel so guilty taking time from my children. Since me and the guy I was dating called it quits I haven’t dating nor slept with anyone since. It’s like I’m celibate. Even though I have kids already, I don’t wanna give my body to anyone anymore until I’m married. Oh, and let me not forget to mention I got my tubes tied a few weeks ago. I’m also scared of what anyone that I will future date have to say about me choosing not having anymore kids ( my health reasons caused me and my doctor to make that decision btw ). But what if he doesn’t have any children himself? I don’t know, just a lot on my mind lately and I’m venting right now. But I do wanna know does any other moms feel this way or going through similar situation?