Feel like im going to go insane!!!

My God this shit sucks ass it's almost been a year since I have had sex .. 11 months with no sex I don't even have a dildo or a vibrator because my man like I don't want you to get "loose" and playing with my self doesn't do shit it's like it makes it worst makes me mad as hell cause it's not the feeling that I want to feel. Have you ever had a sex dream that felt so real and you caught yourself humping the air and you wake up like tf so you play w ya self to kind of get that feeling and you mad af cause it's not the same now you go back to bed mad ? No ? Only me okay 😂😥 any who I just miss my man I miss sex lol and it's not even like I know when he's coming home so I can at least count down the days because it's still on going so he hasn't been sentenced. 😞