Is it possible to have PPD so late after giving birth? Guys I’m really struggling

I was doing so well at first, I was so patient and so assured that I’m a good mum. I felt like I was a natural.

Now suddenly I’m feeling different. I absolutely adore my baby but I’m not patient anymore. I feel like a crappy mum, I feel like he deserves better than me. I feel like I’m failing him everyday. I dread meal times, I dread night times. I feel completely panicked if he doesn’t get his morning nap. I feel completely panicked if he refuses to eat food.

I’m getting so stressed out with him and I hate feeling like this, he’s normally a happy baby and I feel like he’s not a happy baby anymore and this is because of me.

I’m crying while I’m writing this, I just want to feel happy and strong again, not a stressy wreck like this.