I can't do this anymore

Amanda • FTM to Niklaus Eli 💚 Now second baby is on the way 💚💚 Due July 25th, 2023

Please help me. My son(9 mo. Old) has been sleeping in his pack n play for a couple of weeks now and every single night he wakes up every 1.5 to 3 hours. Usually every 1 hour and a half. Just screaming and crying. Sometimes nursing helps. Not always. But at least once a night he just screams and cries and shrieks for 2+ hours and i cant take it anymore. My nerves are totallt fried. My back hurts from bending over the pack n play. I cant stop crying. I already deal with mental illness and this is making it so much worse. I can't keep doing it. He cries no matter what i do unless i let him sleep in bed with me but i cant because he has already fallen out of the bed twice. Please. Someone help. Im getting so angry and im starting to take it out on him by yelling and being frustrated and i had a panic attack tonight and i just cant deal with this. Im desperate. I cant even explain how im feeling. There arent enough or accurate words. Please. Someone please help.