I have one child from an ex already. That was a horribly abusive and toxic relationship, with the physical abuse starting when I was pregnant. Because of that and because of how my family reacted to everything my first pregnancy was horrible. Delivery was scary because not only was my ex lying to me and to his mom about visiting at the hospital so he could sneak off somewhere, I had an emergency c-section at 38 weeks when I’d been so adamant about a natural birth. The whole process from conception to our escape when my child was 5mos was a nightmare.

Today, I’ve been with my SO for over 4 years. We’ve been friends for about 8 years, and we moved in together shortly after dating. Everyday, he’s helping me see that I deserve to be loved. I’m still a work in progress, but he’s helped me more than I can describe in one post.

I’ve been off bc for over a year now, maybe even getting close to 2 years. We were not exactly trying, not preventing, just sort of hoping. But I was starting to get so concerned that one or both of us had some fertility issue. But something felt off this past week or so - my boobs have been really sore, I’ve been getting a little nauseous, I’ve caught myself crying at EVERYTHING that we watch. And then last night I had a couple tiny white flakes come off my nipples - Googled it and found out colostrum leakage can be an early pregnancy sign! Still didn’t want to get my hopes up.

Then I got this bfp this morning!!! I remember using a different brand last time, but imo this looks like a very definite positive! I’m beyond excited, all day I’ve just wanted to run outside and scream, “I’M PREGNANT!!” at everyone! I was shaking and doing a happy cry, mostly because I know my SO is going to make this journey absolutely amazing for me and baby! I can’t get over it and I want everyone to know, but then I remember it’s best to keep it private haha 😅 SO hasn’t even told his parents yet (this would be their first grandchild), as he wants to wait till I’ve had a doctor visit.