Scared && Anxious

I have 10 weeks until my due date! I am so scared and nervous and anxious.

I have a five year old little girl who is so happy to become a big sister. I have a boyfriend (he's the father) who has three kids of his own. I have been separated from my ex for a little over a year now, I went through complete hell with him. I thought leaving was going to be the end of my living nightmare. But he just used our daughter as a pawn to try and control my life. Finally we got custody situated after months. We now have 50/50. She thankfully doesn't seem to mind, thank god! We are working on getting our own house and everything.

But there is still so much to do! New car, (mine needs soo much work!) Gotta get a place. I don't feel ready. I don't know how to balance a little person with a newborn. I am scared she's gonna turn jealous and it'll cause problems in the 50/50 custody. What if his kids hate the fact and doesn't understand why daddy can't be there with them all the time but with a new baby? What about the potential baby mama drama over all of this? What if everybody just blames me? What if I'm not pretty and have to go through an entire labor alone?!

Ugh. Tell me this isn't as impossible as it seems. Tell me I'm crazy. Tell me that it's easy and its gonna be okay. I don't know who to talk to.