So my husband and I have been together for 4 years married for 2 years and things have literally been a rollercoaster the entire time. I must be stupid because from like the end of the first year there was issues of him giving his number to other females and lying about it. Everytime I would find out and he would beg me to forgive him and then my dumb ass would and then it would happen again. 🤦 His complaint about me is that I have a smart mouth and that I don't trust him. Well you can see why I don't trust him. In 2015 he said he was done left went and slept with a co-worker who I had already had suspicions about then like 2 days later came back. My dumb ass took him back again. Then ff to now we moved closer to our family in July of 2017 and things were better at first then the same things that always happen happened again. Giving his number out flirting and texting with girls he works with sending dick pictures and even trying to hook up with one while I was at work. And what does my dumb self do??? I stay!!!! 🤦🤦🤦🤦🤦👎 Whyyyyyyyy? What is wrong with me. Then I was looking on Facebook today and there have been a ton of people taking about these 3 sets of videos going around one of guys xxx and two of girls xxx. The people in the videos are supposed to be from where we live and surrounding towns. Next thing I see is my husband on a few posts saying tag me in the video I want to see and I replied to his comment so you want to see a video of these bitches with their pussies out you sho right. He then replied how you know and I was like because I can read and everyone is talking about it. Then he gets off work and I inform him that people are also saying there are minors on these videos and he shouldn't be just trying to do or watch everything everyone else is cause it could get him in trouble. So we get home and really don't say anything to each other for a few hours I make dinner we eat and we're sitting on the couch and his brother calls. First the conversation is just normal catch up then his brother asks how far along I am and the n they talk about how far along his girl is and then my husband proceeds to start saying I don't let him do anything I don't want him talking on the phone and just basically talking shit. So I get up go to our room and I hear him in the living room talking big shit telling his brother I don't want him talking to him and all this stupid stuff then I tell him I never said anything like that and that the only time I have a problem with him being in the phone is when he's talking to other bitches. Then I tell him tell your brother all the things you've done to me that makes me act the way I do. I forgot to mention that at my last Dr appointment the did a pap and turns out I have an STD! What do you know!!! I have only had sex with him since 2014 so I told him tell your brother you gave me an STD. He gets mad than he is trying to make it seem like he is the best guy ever to his brother. He would be a great guy if he knew how to not cheat. He works hard and helps at home sometimes and has stepped in with my kids as their dad. But I feel like I am so fucking stupid when it comes to him. Sorry I guess I needed to vent!