Hey guys,

I need someone to talk to, I often feel alone in my family and within my relationship. I’m a recent graduate trying to figure out my life, find a job, find me..etc. well I’ve been dating this guy for over a year and I know we’re not meant to be together but he makes me feel like shit for thinking that. I tried to end thing with him plenty of times and a lot of his comments are “I’ve done nothing but love you” “you push the wrong people out” and “do you really want to lose out on someone who loves you.”

I constantly tell him that I am lost and confused in my life and that I just want to get myself together, and that I can’t find me while being in a relationship. He doesn’t seem to get it. His problems always seem to conquer mines. He sees my body as his, something he owns and has taken advantage of me despite my no’s. After a one particular incident where he went all the way with me, while I just laid there, he knew that what he did was wrong and threatened to commit suicide. I’ve been wrapped up in a relationship where I feel as if I am in it to please someone else. He makes me feel guilty a lot for not wanting to have sex or even kiss him.. but yet he doesn’t think he’s done anything wrong when he played the “suicide game” on me 3 times.

He’s made comments like “I wish I would have gotten you pregnant, and then you still be with me.”

Well this time he succeeded. He refuses to use condoms even though I brought it up to him multiple times. I just can’t seem to stand up for myself in this relationship because I end up criticized.

He doesn’t know how I ended up pregnant because he’s never nutted in me and according to him “it’s the best prevention” “you can’t get pregnant on your period..” yadda yadda 🙄

He told me that it is up to me to decide what I want to do because it’s my body.. however he later followed that up with “I don’t think I would be able to talk to you for awhile if you got an abortion”

We got in an argument 2 days ago about it because he doesn’t agree with me considering an abortion as I would be a “baby killer.” He kept going on about it and said “if you’re going to do it, promise me you’re going through with it” and we broke up.. however He didn’t let me leave for 2 hours... he would not get out of my car after I told him to about 6 times.

At the end of the night he told me that he loved me, got out of my car down on his knees and asked me to marry him....

If this aint some fucked up shit bro.

Of course I said no, and said that this is the worst possible moment to do something like that... he then Proceeded to get mad and storm into his house. The next morning I woke up to a massive text from him talking about our future together (Photos attached)

He’s very adamant about this relationship working and keeps pushing me to make it work. I’m tired, even more depressed then I have ever been, and I don’t know what to do.

My family does not like him at all, they believe that he is sucking me dry.. I don’t know how to get out now. My parents do not know, I would feel as if I let them down with something like this... I don’t even know where to start.

He also constantly asks me “why can’t I make you happy.” Even when I explain to him that I haven’t been happy for awhile, and that I have to make myself happy first before he can, we argue about it. It turns into a sob story about him. Every moment meant for me to express my emotions turns into him making it about himself, yet he wonders why I don’t open up a lot. Because at the end of the day he’s going to try and one up me.

My friend opened up about having cancer in front of both of us and said guy talked about how his dad was in and out of the hospital and died (not a cancer related death) he also talked about the illness his mother and sister have went through. My friend later told me that they felt like my bf wasn’t being sincere and made the moment about him.

I hate a lot if his traits and characteristics towards people, he calls people stupid while thinking he’s the shit but at the same time has low self esteem.

At this point, I don’t even feel as if I have a say over me anymore. He makes me more confused than ever, and I don’t want to lose out on finding me.