Hello everyone, please be kind, no mean comments. If this is not your cup of tea, please just move along. I am looking for genuine help. Thank you

I am feeling confused spiritually. My whole life i always felt something was off about me. I never fit in with anyone, I always enjoyed being in nature and around animals. I played in the dirt with the worms and bugs, i talked to trees, nature was my peace growing up. I lived with my grandparents in a Christian household. I believe in God and higher powers, in any shapes or forms. I also remember always having contact with spirtis. My Grandma said there was a little girls spirit who i would play with, my grandma was nurturing, she always taught me to be kind to the spirits, that they are here for a reason and that i shouldn't feel scared. She was able to communicate with spirit's as well. No matter where i go, i feel the spirits around me, sometimes stronger then other times. The little girls spirit i believe has been connected to me, i have moved houses 5 times, yet i always see and sense her Spirit.

I have also grown up extremely sensitive,i feel every emotion strongly, i feel other peoples energy's and emotions and it ALWAYS transfers to me. I feel other's pain, sadness, happiness, to a great extent. To point where i have been dealing with depression and anxiety since i was 10. I've been to therapy, but nothing to seems to help. It's like i have a gift to feel others energy around me.

I am unknowingly drawn to people who need help in their lives, I've been told my whole life that "I'm the person to go to when someone needs a helping hand" even stranger's say they have the urge to just tell me everything going on in their lives, and when our conversations are over, they always thank me and tell me I've helped them so much. I love helping people. It's like the advice and words they need to hear just comes to me naturally.

I greatly believe that God and the spirits above will guide me through life, and give me the tools i need when i need them. Ever since i was young, I've had an incredible trust with God. I trust the higher powers to lead me to my calling in life. I am just confused. Why am i this way? I want to know what, if any, power i have?

My "gut feelings" is ALWAYS so accurate that i will never make a decision if an ounce of me feels off about it. I also have crazy vivid dream, i can remember about 10 dreams off the top of my head that I've had within this past year. I can remember dreams from years ago, from my childhood. I also have an odd ability to sense when a woman is about to be pregnant. I have successfully dreamt of 5 different pregnancy that actually happened to people around me. It's so random sometimes, for example a friend i had in highschool was a girl who didn't want kids, didn't date often, not someone you'd think would get pregnant in high school, well... I had a dream she was having twins. 2 months later she gets pregnant ON THE PILL with twins.

Idk, maybe all this sounds crazy, but i just know something is different with me, and i want to know what it is. I've been doing research about Shaman healers and i think i may be one? I would love to chat with someone of similar experiences or knows about this spiritual side of life.