Conflicted.

I’m not one to be like say no to drugs, since I smoke weed regularly. I’ve done shrooms and MDA before. My guy and I moved to the country side to get away from the hood, it was a bad area nonstop stupid people and shit. His good friend is our neighbor, and we all smoke and chill. Now his friend likes to do coke when he gets some. And invites my guy to do some. My man has told me before he loves coke. I personally never done coke. Ever since we have moved to the country side he has been doing coke whenever his friend gets it. And his friend always has coke. It’s like getting to be like a weekly thing now, for him to do coke now. And it really bugs the fuck out of me. He swears he will never buy cause coke is an expensive habit. Like I know I shouldn’t be like a party pooper, he can whatever he wants, if he wants to do drugs then do it but don’t drag me to it. It’s like drugs will always be the thing he wants. And nothing else. Now doing coke never seem something I want to do. Psychedelics, yes. Because I’m a damn hippie. Lol.

I’m conflicted because I don’t know why him doing coke bothers me a lot. Coke is something I won’t touch. It just bothers me, and then I start overthinking. Is there stuff their SO does that just bug you big time? Like vices