For about 9 months, I knew someone that was battling cancer. He had so much, brain...lung...and so many others....the cancer just kept spreading.

During this time, we had gotten very VERY close. He would always tell everyone that I eased his pain alot of the time.

But about 4 months ago, we got in a fight and ended up sorta ending things.

A week ago he texts me saying that he was terminal and was going to die within the weeks. I had texted him back and he texted his response saying his goodbyes.

He passed away late Saturday night, early Sunday morning.

On Monday night, his best friend texts me...saying how much I changed his life and how much, even after we had our fight, how much he still loved me and how much I helped him get though a horrible time.

(When he said “thank you for coming out tonight”, he was referring to his vigil)

I have many more screen shots of our convos but, the most important thing was that his friend kept telling me how much he still loved me.

He recently informed me that his family wants to give me his gold chain that he always wore.

I cannot describe the hurt that I feel right now, and I know his family feels it x10000 worse, but, atleast I know that he isnt hurting anymore.

I feel like I don’t deserve to miss him or I don’t deserve to be upset...

Even though he said goodbye to me, I never got to say goodbye to him.......

There are so many things he ALWAYS told me that he wanted to do someday, and I intend to do it for him every chance I get.

I had recently lost all of our photos together, but thanks to Caroline who works for Glow on this app, she helped me recover some of my photos that we had together.

I will miss him so so so much. But I know he is not in pain anymore.

O and by the way....im only 16 and I am attending his funeral on Nov. 2nd