Uncertain

I am unsure whether my boyfriend and I are in a relationship. We have been together for 4 years, but he kind of checked out and disappeared on us the moment he found out I was pregnant. Ever since I had a daughter he never made the effort to be around. He goes out with his friends everyday, or hes just sitting on the computer playing fortnite. My daughter and I were living with him for several months this year, but when he became abusive and aggressive after an incident he kicked us out, and I moved back in with my parents. My “boyfriend” is 25 and doesn’t currently work or go to school, but he never comes to see us. The only time he will respond to my text is if I ignore him for several days, but other then that he does not text me and always rejects and refuses to answer my calls. At this point I am honestly tired. My daughter is 13 months now and the days that he’s seen us since I was pregnant is less than a month in total. The other day I told him it was over and he tried to beat me again. He has told me that he does not see himself marrying me, but he will not allow me to be with anybody else. I honestly don’t know what to do. I know I need to leave, but with my daughter in the picture I feel so torn. I feel like this cycle is starting to be the same over and over again. Every time he feels like he doesn’t have control of me he tries to makeup with me in a way. It doesn’t even last a day and he’s back to calling me names. He’s fine one day the next he isn’t. I am starting to question whether I can still go on loving him anymore because I am of afraid and disappointed in him. I do not go on this app often so if anyone is willing to talk to me I am willing to give out my personal number.