GRATEFUL ain’t even the word

Zayn’s Mommy • Lost Baby Zayn👼🏽@22wks💙3.14.18, Blessed with a beautiful baby girl🌈👶🏽💖04.2019

After losing my son in March at 22 weeks because I have an incomplete cervix. He was born early. Lived for 2 hours and died in my arms. I never thought I would be a mother again so soon. In July on the day my son was suppose to be born I took a pregnancy test which was positive but the pregnancy ended in a chemical. I didn’t think I’d get pregnant again so I left it alone. In fact we only had sex TWICE in my fertile window after that. 6 days after my birthday on August 20th I had a dream that I was 4 months pregnant and happy. That dream felt so real. As soon as I woke up I remembered I had cheapies and I just knew they were going to be negative but to my surprise it was a very faint line. Which I’ve never seen before while testing with those cheapies. I was in disbelief and immediately took my boyfriends car, drove to Kroger and bought first response line test and digital and also a clear blue line test and digital. And guess what, it was POSITIVE!!!! I was in shock. But I thought this was another chemical. But to God be the glory it wasn’t. I’m so scared. My boyfriend doesn’t want this baby but that’s okay because I do. I just pray I don’t lose this baby.

Even tho you can’t tell I’m now 14 weeks. Please pray for me and my baby